Sonar and I have accomplished A LOT since I posted back in 2013. I had just finished one of the most amazing chapters in my life traveling and teaching abroad. I am now 40, starting my fifth year of teaching high school literature, reading, and art, and just celebrated the one year anniversary of the purchase of my first home. I'm single, a lone wolf with a terrorist cat, and quite comfortable with my situation.
Here is the irony.
Irony is the spice of life, kids!
With ten years teaching experience, a Master's degree, and five years in at a public school district, I am still struggling to make ends meet. Bernie Sanders, I am your poster girl for someone with a good job, excellent education, and stagnated wages! So, I had to find a job that would be flexible enough that I could teach, work on my art, not lose my social life to a second job: enter Lyft.
Trust me, I agonized. I read blog posts. I checked reviews on Indeed. I'm a teacher. I researched the hell out of it. That's what we do. We overthink things until we drive ourselves nuts, plan for all contingencies, and only then do we move forward cautiously. I finally got up the courage to apply, and off I drove.
The jury is still out on whether or not this is financially worth it. We'll figure that out as we go. Until then...I am Uplyfted.
Come along for the ride.
A Delicate Desert Flower
Friday, August 17, 2018
Friday, August 16, 2013
Well, I'm home.
I'm reminded of Samwise Gamgee when he returned home after seeing Frodo and Gandalf off at the end of the Lord of the Rings.
"Well, I'm home."
Some things had changed. Mostly, things at home had stayed the same. But he had changed forever.
Yeah, it's kind of like that.
Leaving was ridiculous. I've never been that stressed out in my life. Selling everything in my apartment, while packing and continuously re-packing my suitcases and paring down my belongings and simultaneously giving final assessments, packing my classroom, and preparing my files for the next teacher. Taking care of my final bills, closing my bank account, and prepping the apartment for handover. All the while, fears and paranoia my constant companions. Fear of losing part of my gratuity because the facility manager hadn't done something. Fear of not being able to cash my check, not being able to transfer the money at the transfer office, of being stopped at the airport and forbidden to leave because I was missing an important document or something.
I had pushed off the goodbyes and tears until the last minute and had informed my students I was leaving, but it wasn't real until the last day of school. And then the tears just started flowing and wouldn't stop. I wasn't prepared for the cry of sadness that went across the auditorium when I stood with the other departing teachers and our leaving was announced. One of my students was so distraught that she had to be taken off the floor. I wasn't prepared for that, when she hugged me and looked up with her little tear filled eyes just so sad. And then they all started coming up and hugging me and saying goodbye, just these ocean of little sad faces. Man, I was a mess. I took a moment to flee the building and drive back to the hotel to get something. Saying goodbye to my friends was just as hard. We'd become a family, a support group, and close knit team. Virtually everyone I came to Dubai with was departing with me to different ends of the earth, save three people who will continue on in Dubai for awhile. They each took a little piece of my heart with them.
I felt like an alien for my first two weeks home. The first couple of days were rough. It felt like someone had switched the lenses in my glasses, everything was fuzzy. It also felt like it was in hypercolor; I was so used to a brown landscape and all of sudden my field of vision was filled with color like Dorothy going from Kansas to Oz. Hearing everyone speak English in American accents just seemed to flood my ears. Eventually, as I hung out with friends doing the usual things like gaming, movies, and tubing, I began to feel more acclimated. It's going to take awhile, though. There are things I miss about being overseas, but I don't regret coming home. It was time.
Since I have been home, I've been searching high and low for a job teaching. I had known that Philly had laid off tons of teaching staff, but I hadn't know that the Archdiocese had done the same. Along with the tons of new teachers that graduate every May from the local universities, this area is saturated with teachers looking for work. I have had over six interviews, for which I am very grateful. To this date, I have accepted a part time position teaching ESL at one school and also signed up with a substituting agency. I am still interviewing, with the hope that a full time position will become available. Until then, I am very thankful for what I have available. The part time position is at a very nice school although the pay is rock bottom. The staff have been lovely; I really hope that position turns into a more lucrative opportunity. Until then, my theme song is "So I apply, so I apply, so I apply!"
I've never been without a job. It's scary and frustrating. I've been very depressed these last two weeks. It weighs heavy on my shoulders this feeling of shiftlessness. None of the positions I have interviewed for offer any kind of benefits. One of them doesn't even take taxes out. Still in this economy with the shortage of teaching positions and overabundance of teachers I am lucky to have found what I did. I am thinking of applying to other states next May, and I don't rule out the possibility of going overseas again though I recoil a bit at the thought of more airports and planes. Still, I am sure that I did the right thing because of the quality time I have been able to spend with friends and family. I've gotten to hang out with my little niece and see my older niece as well as my aunt and cousins. So I trundle along, applying and seeking out opportunity.
If opportunity comes a-knockin', she'd better be holding a steady paycheck, benefits, and a beer.
"Well, I'm home."
Some things had changed. Mostly, things at home had stayed the same. But he had changed forever.
Yeah, it's kind of like that.
Leaving was ridiculous. I've never been that stressed out in my life. Selling everything in my apartment, while packing and continuously re-packing my suitcases and paring down my belongings and simultaneously giving final assessments, packing my classroom, and preparing my files for the next teacher. Taking care of my final bills, closing my bank account, and prepping the apartment for handover. All the while, fears and paranoia my constant companions. Fear of losing part of my gratuity because the facility manager hadn't done something. Fear of not being able to cash my check, not being able to transfer the money at the transfer office, of being stopped at the airport and forbidden to leave because I was missing an important document or something.
I had pushed off the goodbyes and tears until the last minute and had informed my students I was leaving, but it wasn't real until the last day of school. And then the tears just started flowing and wouldn't stop. I wasn't prepared for the cry of sadness that went across the auditorium when I stood with the other departing teachers and our leaving was announced. One of my students was so distraught that she had to be taken off the floor. I wasn't prepared for that, when she hugged me and looked up with her little tear filled eyes just so sad. And then they all started coming up and hugging me and saying goodbye, just these ocean of little sad faces. Man, I was a mess. I took a moment to flee the building and drive back to the hotel to get something. Saying goodbye to my friends was just as hard. We'd become a family, a support group, and close knit team. Virtually everyone I came to Dubai with was departing with me to different ends of the earth, save three people who will continue on in Dubai for awhile. They each took a little piece of my heart with them.
I felt like an alien for my first two weeks home. The first couple of days were rough. It felt like someone had switched the lenses in my glasses, everything was fuzzy. It also felt like it was in hypercolor; I was so used to a brown landscape and all of sudden my field of vision was filled with color like Dorothy going from Kansas to Oz. Hearing everyone speak English in American accents just seemed to flood my ears. Eventually, as I hung out with friends doing the usual things like gaming, movies, and tubing, I began to feel more acclimated. It's going to take awhile, though. There are things I miss about being overseas, but I don't regret coming home. It was time.
Since I have been home, I've been searching high and low for a job teaching. I had known that Philly had laid off tons of teaching staff, but I hadn't know that the Archdiocese had done the same. Along with the tons of new teachers that graduate every May from the local universities, this area is saturated with teachers looking for work. I have had over six interviews, for which I am very grateful. To this date, I have accepted a part time position teaching ESL at one school and also signed up with a substituting agency. I am still interviewing, with the hope that a full time position will become available. Until then, I am very thankful for what I have available. The part time position is at a very nice school although the pay is rock bottom. The staff have been lovely; I really hope that position turns into a more lucrative opportunity. Until then, my theme song is "So I apply, so I apply, so I apply!"
I've never been without a job. It's scary and frustrating. I've been very depressed these last two weeks. It weighs heavy on my shoulders this feeling of shiftlessness. None of the positions I have interviewed for offer any kind of benefits. One of them doesn't even take taxes out. Still in this economy with the shortage of teaching positions and overabundance of teachers I am lucky to have found what I did. I am thinking of applying to other states next May, and I don't rule out the possibility of going overseas again though I recoil a bit at the thought of more airports and planes. Still, I am sure that I did the right thing because of the quality time I have been able to spend with friends and family. I've gotten to hang out with my little niece and see my older niece as well as my aunt and cousins. So I trundle along, applying and seeking out opportunity.
If opportunity comes a-knockin', she'd better be holding a steady paycheck, benefits, and a beer.
Tuesday, April 16, 2013
Shake it shake it SHAKE IT!
As my time winds down here in Dubai, I'm trying to squeeze in some last minute experiences. Brunch at the Al Qasr, a trip to the Al Nayhan mosque in Abu Dhabi, and some another yacht cruise with friends. An earthquake was not an experience that I was hoping to have before I left.
We didn't feel last week's tremors that radiated from Iran. Some people in the outer parts of Dubai did, but not much. So I wasn't looking for anything exciting. Today had been a busy day. I was sitting reading my email, listening to the high school girls next door chatting away and my friend drag her class through their tasks. Suddenly, the door next to me leading to the next classroom began to shake. At first I thought it was the high school girls being cheeky. And then I heard their confused yips as the room began to shake.
I've never felt anything like it. The door rattled like a poltergeist was shaking it. The walls shook. The floor rumbled as if a huge truck were driving through our classroom. My chair trembled as if someone were shaking it roughly to wake me up. I was awake alright! The lights flickered, and the students looked around wildly.
After about 8 seconds, it stopped. We all just kind of looked at each other "Did that just happen?!"
"Was that an earthquake?"
You read about it in the news. Friends tell you about their experiences. And then it happens to you. Nope, there's no preparing for that. Honest to God, I am still shaking a bit inside. I checked the news; within minutes it was all over the UAE news sites saying that the quake had originated on the Iran/ Pakistan border with every number from 7.5 to 8.0. Iran already has a death toll and it's climbing. Friends of friends are reporting all over that their buildings were evacuated. Someone swears she saw the Burj Khalifa sway back and forth. Not sure about that, but I'm still swaying a bit that's for sure!
https://www.facebook.com/elena.holmes.33/posts/10200866232315628?comment_id=6191980&offset=0&total_comments=7¬if_t=feed_comment
Now that I've had this experience, and I'll admit that I've been curious about earthquakes, I can freely say under no circumstances do I need this experience repeated. I'm good, thanks!
We didn't feel last week's tremors that radiated from Iran. Some people in the outer parts of Dubai did, but not much. So I wasn't looking for anything exciting. Today had been a busy day. I was sitting reading my email, listening to the high school girls next door chatting away and my friend drag her class through their tasks. Suddenly, the door next to me leading to the next classroom began to shake. At first I thought it was the high school girls being cheeky. And then I heard their confused yips as the room began to shake.
I've never felt anything like it. The door rattled like a poltergeist was shaking it. The walls shook. The floor rumbled as if a huge truck were driving through our classroom. My chair trembled as if someone were shaking it roughly to wake me up. I was awake alright! The lights flickered, and the students looked around wildly.
After about 8 seconds, it stopped. We all just kind of looked at each other "Did that just happen?!"
"Was that an earthquake?"
You read about it in the news. Friends tell you about their experiences. And then it happens to you. Nope, there's no preparing for that. Honest to God, I am still shaking a bit inside. I checked the news; within minutes it was all over the UAE news sites saying that the quake had originated on the Iran/ Pakistan border with every number from 7.5 to 8.0. Iran already has a death toll and it's climbing. Friends of friends are reporting all over that their buildings were evacuated. Someone swears she saw the Burj Khalifa sway back and forth. Not sure about that, but I'm still swaying a bit that's for sure!
https://www.facebook.com/elena.holmes.33/posts/10200866232315628?comment_id=6191980&offset=0&total_comments=7¬if_t=feed_comment
Now that I've had this experience, and I'll admit that I've been curious about earthquakes, I can freely say under no circumstances do I need this experience repeated. I'm good, thanks!
Friday, February 15, 2013
The Road Goes Ever Ever On
Ever since my feet touched Dubai's hot sand this past August, I've felt that I had a decision to make this year. Granted, I've been in that position before, but this time I rather felt it in my heart of hearts if you will. There just seemed to be little hints everywhere. Changes in staff dynamics and school policies, friends deciding to move on, and personal events at home all played a part in the decision. Just lots of little things.
Well, some not so little. Some were rather depressing, disheartening, and downright outrageous. No, I shall not go into detail because it's personal or I'll just get all wound up all over again. But also things that didn't get to me before were starting to bother me. Children riding in front seats in laps with no seat belt or car seat (common with locals here), inequity of consequences for crimes (a local man guilty of manslaughter gets three months while a couple caught kissing in public gets jailed for a year?!), the heat, the crazy driving, the rundown neighborhood the teachers are housed in, the money making schemes of a for-profit school, the frustration of any kind of contact with the infrastructure, the inability to queue for just about anything, having to have a license to buy alcohol, not having freedom of speech (you don't realize how much you treasure it until you don't have it!) just to name a few. No, those things didn't bother me before. They're just a part of living in Dubai. Nothing can be done about it. It's just the way it is. And then I realized I'm done. That doesn't work for me anymore.
http://travel.aol.co.uk/2013/01/25/couple-caught-kissing-on-dubai-beach-jailed-for-a-year/
It was my trip home at Christmas that really helped me make the decision. I stood in the kitchen looking out the window on Christmas Day morning looking out at the snow as I sipped my coffee. Homestar was rubbing against my legs. Christmas Eve had been spent eating cookies, watching Christmas movies, and tracking Santa with my niece on NORAD's website. I was thinking about how much she had grown. She's going to be in fourh grade next year. It occurred to me that aunts cease being cool once they become teenagers. Taller, smarter, and much more a part of the world around her. My other niece, well, she didn't really remember me all that much. Not even from the summer. And that bothered me. A lot. More than I thought it would. A cardinal landed on the snowy bush outside the kitchen window, as if waiting to have his picture taken for a Christmas card. I thought of how lovely the backyard would look in autumn, that golden brown back-to-school time of year when the leaves are falling and my friends are all gearing up for Halloween. I wanted that. Fall. Crisp breezes, carved pumpkins, and that lovely smell of damp decay as the leaves decompose on the ground to feed the soil. I figured then and there that I was ready to come home though for a couple of weeks I did entertain other ideas. But when it came time to handing in my letter of intent, my sure intent was set on home.
I'll admit, I've gotten some crazy looks from my teacher friends when I tell them that I'm going home. "Don't you want another contract?! Don't you want to travel more? Isn't this what you want out of life?" No, yes, and no. For some people, yes, country hopping is a career. I've enjoyed my time in Dubai, loved traveling. But I've grown tired of planes and packing and weary of airports. For right now, I can't think of any other place I'd rather live than home. Don't get me wrong. That might change. Going abroad is an option and if I don't find a solid job at home I will be looking for another international contract at the end of next year. For now, my feet are leading me home.
You know what's funny? Some teachers have actually been rather envious that I'm going home. I am rather lucky, being single with no children. I've got a lot of options. Some people are kind of stuck here because their spouses have good jobs here and the jobs at home are sketchy. It's hard to move around if you've got a family with children. I have a feeling more teachers would go home if they could, but their situations are complicated. I'm fortunate and I'm thankful for that. Some of the staff and parents have been kind enough to let me know I'll be missed. The best statement came from one of my Arabic staff friends. She said "WHO SAID YOU CAN LEAVE?! I KEEL YOU!" That's love.
And so now I sit in limbo. Not many jobs are posted in the Phildelphia area yet and won't be until April or later. My PA application is updated. I am also open to positions in other states on the East Coast. Heck, even the West Coast is closer to home than Dubai. I've heard good things about Portland and Seattle. I can't sell any furniture yet except for the odd shelf. I have arranged for Sonar's flight home in early April. I figure once she flies out I will start the dismantling process. Does anyone else get a mental picture of this cat showing up at the airport with a suitcase and little passport?
I will miss my friends here. I have worked with a very gifted and dedicated staff. My students for the most part are wonderful. I have made some very good friends in Dubai that I have enjoyed spending time with. Thank God for Facebook so I can still keep up with everyone even after I leave. I hope to visit friends abroad still. I have friends all over the globe now. And as I've said, I'm not done traveling. I just want to be able to go home when I'm done :)
So in a couple of months, I will start to slowly let my life in Dubai go. May and June are going to be busy as I get rid of my things, apply to jobs, and hopefully score some interviews. I am looking forward to spending time with my family and reconnecting with my friends in the US. And being a nerd again. Like I ever stopped, but one kind of has to go Nerd Incognito in Dubai as they are few and far between here. One has those moments when one says something like "Ha! You rolled a one on your Charisma there!" and the Mundanes just kind of...stare. Or perhaps one makes it known that she has read "The Hitchikers Guide to the Universe" and someone asks if it's a new romance novel. Wicked Faire, Faerie Con, Steampunk World Faire, Pennsic, miscellaneous other nerdfests...sigh...hopefully I'll make it to some events to nerd out with my buddies.
Now to ponder, organize, and sketch out as much of my exit strategy as I can for now.
The road goes ever ever on...
Well, some not so little. Some were rather depressing, disheartening, and downright outrageous. No, I shall not go into detail because it's personal or I'll just get all wound up all over again. But also things that didn't get to me before were starting to bother me. Children riding in front seats in laps with no seat belt or car seat (common with locals here), inequity of consequences for crimes (a local man guilty of manslaughter gets three months while a couple caught kissing in public gets jailed for a year?!), the heat, the crazy driving, the rundown neighborhood the teachers are housed in, the money making schemes of a for-profit school, the frustration of any kind of contact with the infrastructure, the inability to queue for just about anything, having to have a license to buy alcohol, not having freedom of speech (you don't realize how much you treasure it until you don't have it!) just to name a few. No, those things didn't bother me before. They're just a part of living in Dubai. Nothing can be done about it. It's just the way it is. And then I realized I'm done. That doesn't work for me anymore.
http://travel.aol.co.uk/2013/01/25/couple-caught-kissing-on-dubai-beach-jailed-for-a-year/
It was my trip home at Christmas that really helped me make the decision. I stood in the kitchen looking out the window on Christmas Day morning looking out at the snow as I sipped my coffee. Homestar was rubbing against my legs. Christmas Eve had been spent eating cookies, watching Christmas movies, and tracking Santa with my niece on NORAD's website. I was thinking about how much she had grown. She's going to be in fourh grade next year. It occurred to me that aunts cease being cool once they become teenagers. Taller, smarter, and much more a part of the world around her. My other niece, well, she didn't really remember me all that much. Not even from the summer. And that bothered me. A lot. More than I thought it would. A cardinal landed on the snowy bush outside the kitchen window, as if waiting to have his picture taken for a Christmas card. I thought of how lovely the backyard would look in autumn, that golden brown back-to-school time of year when the leaves are falling and my friends are all gearing up for Halloween. I wanted that. Fall. Crisp breezes, carved pumpkins, and that lovely smell of damp decay as the leaves decompose on the ground to feed the soil. I figured then and there that I was ready to come home though for a couple of weeks I did entertain other ideas. But when it came time to handing in my letter of intent, my sure intent was set on home.
I'll admit, I've gotten some crazy looks from my teacher friends when I tell them that I'm going home. "Don't you want another contract?! Don't you want to travel more? Isn't this what you want out of life?" No, yes, and no. For some people, yes, country hopping is a career. I've enjoyed my time in Dubai, loved traveling. But I've grown tired of planes and packing and weary of airports. For right now, I can't think of any other place I'd rather live than home. Don't get me wrong. That might change. Going abroad is an option and if I don't find a solid job at home I will be looking for another international contract at the end of next year. For now, my feet are leading me home.
You know what's funny? Some teachers have actually been rather envious that I'm going home. I am rather lucky, being single with no children. I've got a lot of options. Some people are kind of stuck here because their spouses have good jobs here and the jobs at home are sketchy. It's hard to move around if you've got a family with children. I have a feeling more teachers would go home if they could, but their situations are complicated. I'm fortunate and I'm thankful for that. Some of the staff and parents have been kind enough to let me know I'll be missed. The best statement came from one of my Arabic staff friends. She said "WHO SAID YOU CAN LEAVE?! I KEEL YOU!" That's love.
And so now I sit in limbo. Not many jobs are posted in the Phildelphia area yet and won't be until April or later. My PA application is updated. I am also open to positions in other states on the East Coast. Heck, even the West Coast is closer to home than Dubai. I've heard good things about Portland and Seattle. I can't sell any furniture yet except for the odd shelf. I have arranged for Sonar's flight home in early April. I figure once she flies out I will start the dismantling process. Does anyone else get a mental picture of this cat showing up at the airport with a suitcase and little passport?
I will miss my friends here. I have worked with a very gifted and dedicated staff. My students for the most part are wonderful. I have made some very good friends in Dubai that I have enjoyed spending time with. Thank God for Facebook so I can still keep up with everyone even after I leave. I hope to visit friends abroad still. I have friends all over the globe now. And as I've said, I'm not done traveling. I just want to be able to go home when I'm done :)
So in a couple of months, I will start to slowly let my life in Dubai go. May and June are going to be busy as I get rid of my things, apply to jobs, and hopefully score some interviews. I am looking forward to spending time with my family and reconnecting with my friends in the US. And being a nerd again. Like I ever stopped, but one kind of has to go Nerd Incognito in Dubai as they are few and far between here. One has those moments when one says something like "Ha! You rolled a one on your Charisma there!" and the Mundanes just kind of...stare. Or perhaps one makes it known that she has read "The Hitchikers Guide to the Universe" and someone asks if it's a new romance novel. Wicked Faire, Faerie Con, Steampunk World Faire, Pennsic, miscellaneous other nerdfests...sigh...hopefully I'll make it to some events to nerd out with my buddies.
Now to ponder, organize, and sketch out as much of my exit strategy as I can for now.
The road goes ever ever on...
Saturday, September 22, 2012
Falling from Summer
As a teacher, we look forward to summers like children look forward to Christmas. We go and go and go at full steam ahead for 180 days so we can have those summer months off. Still, who are we kidding? We end up doing school work, planning, and making stuff for class anyway. But in between those times, I try to spend as much time goofing off as possible!
I have to say that the summers I have spent home in the last couple of years have been some of the best in my life. I so enjoy the time I spend at home with family and friends. This summer was fantastic. I didn't have much planned, except to enjoy people's company and attend a long anticipated friends' wedding. The bachelorette was a hoot and a holler. I need my own Russian masseuse. He had such nice hands... And then came the wedding day. I've never been so happy to be drafted to hold someone's train. My face hurt, I was smiling so big. We toasted, got toasted, and were quite merry. Soooo happy for them, really. It's about time. I also got to go tubing, made dinner for friends, and went to a local carnival.
I was quite happy that I got to spend so much time with my little brother. He had joined me in Scotland, and now when I dream of travelling he's usually with me. We got to prowl around a bit, go hiking with some friends, and generally shoot the @%$#. Saw a movie, got ice cream, went out to lunch, whatever we had time for. Twas awesome.
Admittedly, I am happy doing just about anything as long as my friends and family are there. That's what I really look forward to in the summer. Sure, travelling is life altering and full of positive and tasty experiences. But on the inside I've got this little clock ticking down the days until I see the people I love. While I was home this summer, in addition to registering for an absentee ballot I made the decision and bought my tickets home for Christmas. Some people I work with say "Aw, it's not worth it to go home for such a short time" but I heartily disagree. I spent a holiday away from home, and though it was interesting and fun it can't replace the familiarity and comfort of home at Christmas. I want to be home, on the couch with Mom and my siblings watching the Grinch and eating goodies while the nieces take the living room apart and pound up and down the kitchen like little chaos fairies.
And now I'm back where I was last year this time. I have a decision to make. Everyone was asking me all throughout summer and as soon as I got back my coworkers were asking as well. What am I going to do at the end of this school year??
Question of the year, that is. I'll get back to you on that one.
I have to say that the summers I have spent home in the last couple of years have been some of the best in my life. I so enjoy the time I spend at home with family and friends. This summer was fantastic. I didn't have much planned, except to enjoy people's company and attend a long anticipated friends' wedding. The bachelorette was a hoot and a holler. I need my own Russian masseuse. He had such nice hands... And then came the wedding day. I've never been so happy to be drafted to hold someone's train. My face hurt, I was smiling so big. We toasted, got toasted, and were quite merry. Soooo happy for them, really. It's about time. I also got to go tubing, made dinner for friends, and went to a local carnival.
I was quite happy that I got to spend so much time with my little brother. He had joined me in Scotland, and now when I dream of travelling he's usually with me. We got to prowl around a bit, go hiking with some friends, and generally shoot the @%$#. Saw a movie, got ice cream, went out to lunch, whatever we had time for. Twas awesome.
Admittedly, I am happy doing just about anything as long as my friends and family are there. That's what I really look forward to in the summer. Sure, travelling is life altering and full of positive and tasty experiences. But on the inside I've got this little clock ticking down the days until I see the people I love. While I was home this summer, in addition to registering for an absentee ballot I made the decision and bought my tickets home for Christmas. Some people I work with say "Aw, it's not worth it to go home for such a short time" but I heartily disagree. I spent a holiday away from home, and though it was interesting and fun it can't replace the familiarity and comfort of home at Christmas. I want to be home, on the couch with Mom and my siblings watching the Grinch and eating goodies while the nieces take the living room apart and pound up and down the kitchen like little chaos fairies.
And now I'm back where I was last year this time. I have a decision to make. Everyone was asking me all throughout summer and as soon as I got back my coworkers were asking as well. What am I going to do at the end of this school year??
Question of the year, that is. I'll get back to you on that one.
France: Open Mind and Open Mouth
I have to say that summer was amazing. So sorry this post comes so late. I have to admit that I was scared on my way to France. I had rented a car ("We only have ze BMW, is zees ok? Same price as small car. Oh sure, if I must), organized my accommodations, printed out directions, and was planning to drive around for nine days until I met my mother in Paris. I was in Heathrow, thinking I could easily just have changed my tickets and gone to spend time with my friend in Liverpool instead of trying to navigate the twists and turns of France by myself. But no, would never live with myself. I guess what was really bothering me was my French language deficiency. I spoke enough Italian to get around, I can get away with some Spanish. French? No, not my strongest suit. But hey, I figure if you can say 'Hello', 'Goodbye', 'Please', 'Thank you', and 'Where is the toilet?' you can get around in any country. Politeness is an international passport. So, off I went.
First and foremost, they drive on the right. No problem there. Second, Paris traffic is absolutely a nightmare. It took me two hours on the ring road around Paris in bumper to bumper traffic just to get out of it. When it finally opened up into open road, I was left fumbling for change trying to figure out which toll lane to get into. Thank god for the pictures above the booth. I went for the one with the picture of money above, and it was a self service. From there on, I had no issues driving anywhere. Got the difficult part down. Sure, I couldn't read any of the traffic warning signs. It could have said there were UFO's mutilating cattle up ahead, and I would have driven along blissfully ignorant. No worries. Driving in France is all good.
What I was struck by was the open space. Fields as far as the eye can see. Wide open spaces filled with sunflowers, vineyards, corn, and grains. Small towns that you can spot on the horizon because their 15th century church spires call your attention. And most of rural France is small towns. And when I say small it means that there is one main road and you are through the town in less than three minutes.
Amboise was my first stop. It was the home of the kings and queens of France, as well as the last home of Leonardo Da Vinci when he was in the service of Francois I. I loved his home, Le Clos Luce. Quiet, with huge gardens and ponds. I was one of the first people there that day. Even the museum guides in their chintzy medieval costumes hadn't arrived yet. Felt like it was just me, following Da Vinci's echo through old hallways. Old faded tapestries, huge fireplaces, and tall dark wood chairs still occupy his rooms. In the basement are replicas of some of his inventions alongside copies of his sketches. The man was a visionary genius. He invented a double hull for ships. Would Titanic had sunk if we had started using and evolving that technology sooner? Paddleboats, suspension bridges, the ball bearing...and weapons. He was paid a lot of gold by royalty to invent weapons. I really think it was his bread and butter. There were smaller replicas of those in an adjoining building. One of them was particularly nasty, a chariot with scythes on the wheels designed to cut enemies off at the knees. Out in the gardens were full size replicas of some of his inventions. The one I enjoyed most was the tank, which when you turn the wheel it will spin a full 360 degrees. You can see through the slits, and I would assume fire arrows and the like. Yeah, I giggled like a maniac as it was just me around so I spun around in there for a good five minutes. At the castle of Amboise, Da Vinci is buried in the chapel marked by a bronze slab bearing his name and image. That's all. Nothing huge or showy. The castle overlooks the Loire river valley. You could see people coming for miles. That, and it's just a wonderful view of such a lush green place.
Lascaux was pretty cool in the Dordogne valley. Ever see those cave paintings in books of mammoths? I saw those. Lascaux itself had to be closed due to the damage to the paintings, so bless their little French hearts they replicated the caves exactly so people could still see the paintings. They are indeed the most clear and colorful cave paintings I have ever seen. The sophistication is amazing, how they used such simple lines to convey movement. I saw a second cave at Rouffignac, which was original. The area itself is set so far back from the road in the middle of this primeval ancient pine forest that there is only one single lane road in and out. I was lucky, I got one of the last tickets available for the day. I also didn't realize how far back into the cave it was. The train takes guests on a 15 minute ride back into the caves. The walls are covered with thousands upon thousands of claw marks from cave bears. Can you imagine being an ancient human, armed with a torch and a stone knife wandering back into these caves knowing that you might run into an eight foot tall cave bear? Yikes. Unfortunately, none of the tours were available in English. All I could do was look around and try to listen for words I knew. Most of these mammoths were black outlines. However, the image that the cave is known for are a parade of mammoths carved into the walls. It's unknown what these images were for or who did them. It's thought that perhaps they were magical or religious, carved by shamans or holy people. I enjoyed a rather lovely meal at my hotel of fresh fish, a pear and pork salad, and heavenly profiteroles (round cream filled puff pastries) with a homemade chocolate sauce and a pistachio macaron. I had a cool shower after; I honestly felt like I'd just had really good sex. I've only ever enjoyed a meal like that maybe once before in my life. And that was in Italy.
I was surprised by Provence. I've always seen images of rolling lavender fields. What they don't show you are the winding mountain roads and dense forests that surround those fields. My little car kept climbing, back tracking, and switching back over these twisting mountain roads until when I finally thought I would never make it, I crested the top of the mountain and looked down upon a carpet of lavender. The valley was blanketed in purple. There aren't too many times I can remember being speechless. I reached the tiny town of Sault on Bastille Day, so there was a lot going on in this tiny hilltop town. The church was open to visitors, with huge vaulted ceilings. There was a small festival going on for the holiday. I stopped at the cheese shop for some lovely goat cheese with lavender. Found a nougatier selling lavender flavored meringues. I sat with my little picnic and a small bottle of rose wine looking out onto the town square as they lived it up for Bastille Day. When the sun set, the valley was ablaze with fireworks. There was a concert somewhere, because it echoed up and down the valley. The next day I drove up and down the valley, around and around the winding roads just taking in the sights and smells of the lavender fields. The farms weren't open yet because the lavender wasn't quite ready to be harvested. I had wanted to paint, but it was too damn windy and chilly. Yes, chilly. A temperature I no longer seem to be familiar with or prepared for. There is a small grey 11th century abbey nestled in one of the steep valleys in Provence called Abbaye de Senanque. Grey stone surrounded by an ocean of purple. I happened to be there on a Sunday just in time for services. Huge ceilings, tall columns, and high windows, with plain wooden chairs for seating. The service was in French, so I couldn't understand a word. However, the singing was worth sitting through the service. Ever hear Gregorian chant? Yeah, it was like that. Their voices reverberated through the medieval hall. It was worth almost driving off a cliffside on a one way road to get there just to hear that.
I met my mother in Paris a few days later on the Viking riverboat cruise. We saw Notre Dame, which I could just sit outside and take in the ghoulish and saintly faces peering at me from all corners of the facade on every side. There was a guided tour of the Louvre, and I'm glad to say I did it and saw the Mona Lisa and Winged Victory but it was so crowded I really wouldn't do it again unless I could be guaranteed a little breathing room. I have to say that I did see the Eiffel Tower, but felt no need to climb it. I was quite satisfied with a view from the distance. I have to say, I was just so glad to be with my mom. I was so lonely by the ninth day that I just couldn't wait to turn in the car and run to meet her. I'd reached my limit for independent travel and wanted my mommy :) The cruise was very peaceful, you can see so much sailing down the river. Old towns and churches, river traffic, houseboats, and mansions that I swore only existed in movies. Rouen was like a smaller version of Paris. We took a walking tour of town and saw the old Gothic church, and then had the pleasure of seeing Monet's paintings of it in the city's art museum. One of the highlights of that trip for me was seeing the Bayeaux tapestry. Glad that my mom was as keen to see it as I was! Woohoo! The largest piece of embroidery, a little over a foot wide and about 250 long. The audio guide keeps one moving rather fast, but it explains each stage of the events that unfolded before, during, and directly after the battle of Hastings. Supposedly it was commissioned by William the Conqueror's brother Odo. They believe it was done in a workshop in England, but it is not known by who or how many people worked on it. I was amazed at how bright the colors are hundreds of years after it was produced. We met some lovely people on the cruise, had some very nice food including frogs' legs, escargot (snails) and filet mignon. We ate well, and I could feel myself putting a bit of weight on. Oh damn, it was fun. It was splendid to be experiencing these things with my mom, and the time we spent together will be something I will use as one of my happy thoughts :)
French people? Friendly, helpful, polite, don't know why people say they're so rude. They don't seem to know how to queue, but they are not the only culture to not know how to wait their turn. Perhaps this was because we didn't come into contact with many Parisians ;) Still, we did run into a rude man but he worked at the airport. I'm pretty sure working at the airport trumped the rude Parisian card. He was simply rude because he worked at the airport!
It was a wonderful experience, both exploring on my own and with my mother. There are upsides to travelling alone, because you're on your own time and can do whatever you want. Linger however long you want, eat when and where you wish, and take everything in at your own pace. The downside is that when you see something cool, there's no one to share it with. There were so many times when I wished with all my heart that those I love were with me. I'm glad the trip was balanced out with some awesome Mom-and-Me time. At this point, I think I'm kind of over seeing things by myself and would love to share more of my experiences with friends and family. It's been wonderful for my family and friends who have been able to join be abroad. Hopefully, we'll get to enjoy more travelling together :)
Scotland the Green and Wet!
I have to say that Scotland has been one of my most favorite places that I have visited. Perhaps it was the timing. I was truly getting tired of brown sand, white villas, and sandstorms. Scotland was a welcome breather full of blooming trees, early spring flowers, and light refreshing showers of rain. Much needed, I assure you. I was also dying to see familiar faces, and was darn near bursting at the seams to see my brother and my friend Troy. I have to say, those two are easy to pick out in a crowd. I mean, c'mon, Matt was wearing his brightest blue scrub pants and Troy is over 6 feet tall with hair longer than most women. They don't blend very well :) I met them in Heathrow, where we had to hang out for a few hours before we blasted off to Scotland.
I have to say, Edinburgh Airport is much easier to navigate. I think it's because it's so much smaller than most other airports I have been to. You blink and you're at the baggage claim. You wink and you're out the door. The car rental place was easy, just gave them my reservation and off we went. They gave us an Audi A4 because we had requested a GPS. Um, wow. I have NEVER driven anything as nice as that Audi. Sleek, black, lovely interior, and so many buttons I figured if I pressed the wrong one we would find ourselves speeding towards Mars. Disconcerting enough that the steering wheel is on the right with the subsequent shifty/ geary stuff on the left...it also took us a couple of minutes to figure out how to start it. It came with what looked like a fob, but no key. After Troy consulted the manual, we found the place to insert the "key" followed by depressing the break and pushing the key in to start the car. Weird! But kinda neat ;) It took us another five minutes to figure out how to program the GPS, which I dubbed "Rosie". So I would have someone to curse out in my frustration if we got lost. As we drove off the rental lot I could see others leaving, driving with much the same overly defensive OMG-this-is-unnatural demeanor. It was a bit nerve wracking at first. Still, as we wended our way into Edinburgh city, it got easier. The roads are the tiniest bit wider than in Ireland. And I had been proactive and gotten the full insurance on the car. No worries.
The first B&B was located out in the neighborhood of Merchiston. I highly recommend the Granville Guest House if you are ever in Edinburgh. The owner, Latif, is a doll and takes extreme pride and care in providing for his guests. We didn't do much the first day because we had all three been awake for over 30 hours. We found a nice little place down the street called the Piece Box to have afternoon tea. It was an early night for us.
The next day we awoke bright and early and after a lovely breakfast of sausage, eggs, ham (lovely porky goodness!) and toast we hopped the bus up to the Royal Mile. Thank goodness we got to Edinburgh Castle quite early. There was already a line 30 people long. This much I have learned from travelling: Get to the biggest attractions first thing when they open, or you will be waiting quite a bit to get in. The castle was amazing. I believe it sits on the highest hill in the city. You can see all the way out into the Firth of Forth from its walls. There are rows of cannon lining the old stone walls, though they are not original. There are lots of places to see inside the castle, including the Crown Jewels. I found the Stone of Scone (or the Stone of Destiny) to be more interesting. Up until 1998, it had sat under the throne at Westminster Abbey in England where the royals sat to be crowned. It was returned to Scotland that year, and it will be brought to Westminster again when the next monarch of England is to be crowned. Think of how many royals have been crowned over that stone in the last couple of hundred years. Cause for reflection, I think. One of the things that really tickled me was the small graveyard below the chapel of Mons Meg for the dogs of the officers. Little headstones with names like "Tinker" and "Scamp". Such easily overlooked things that speak more to me about the people who lived there than do cannon or great halls. After Edinburgh Castle, we meandered down the St. Giles Cathedral. There is a chapel dedicated to the only chivalric order in Scotland in there, the Knights of the Thistle. They also have the largest pipe organ I have ever seen in my life, reaching straight to heaven or so it seemed. I wish I could have heard it play, I'm sure it was something very special and memorable to hear. What dazzled me more was the plethora of fresh daffodils all around the church for Easter services. Spring seemed to have sprung inside the church, and for all of the neo-Gothic loveliness, I was equally taken with the fresh yellow flowers in their simple pots strewn about the church. As if we hadn't seen enough, we went to see the National Museum just a few blocks over. Wow, we were tired by then. Eyes starting to glaze over a bit. There is such a thing as saturation, when your senses have taken in so much in a short time that your brain really can't take much more. Well, we'd almost reached our daily limit I feel. I have to say that the prehistoric, Pictish, and early Roman artifacts are extremely interesting. I had forgotten that the Romans had come into Scotland, and had built settlements on the southern half of the country. Pictish artifacts were found out on many of the islands such as Islay and the Orkneys. I couldn't help myself, had to take pics of the fertility amulets and votives lol There were torques, bracelets, brooches, a hood, dishes, even remnants of shoes. Old arrowheads, a stone arm guard for an archer, a horse's armor. The Bank of Scotland chest with fifteen locks in the lid just boggled my mind. That evening, we visited a few pubs in the Grassmarket area that played live music. Wow, that's one busy pub scene. Crowded, one has to push to the bar. I did find out that due to my dieting, I can really only handle two pints anymore. I got full! Darn those calories.
The next day, we bid adieu to Latif and headed out to Glencoe. We stopped on the way at Stirling, stronghold of Robert the Bruce. Site of the battle at Bannockburn where he defeated the English. Childhood home of the young Mary Queen of Scots. Clouds wash over the green hills. There was a strong breeze carrying the scent of fresh rain. Yeah, I liked it there. Robert Bruce is really seen as the hero of that time, and William Wallace seems to considered more of a secondary figure.
I could give you a play by play of the rest of the trip, but I'd actually prefer that you check out my Facebook photos. They kind of tell the story better than I could. It's got a special place in my heart. I would go back in a heartbeat if given the opportunity.
I have to say, Edinburgh Airport is much easier to navigate. I think it's because it's so much smaller than most other airports I have been to. You blink and you're at the baggage claim. You wink and you're out the door. The car rental place was easy, just gave them my reservation and off we went. They gave us an Audi A4 because we had requested a GPS. Um, wow. I have NEVER driven anything as nice as that Audi. Sleek, black, lovely interior, and so many buttons I figured if I pressed the wrong one we would find ourselves speeding towards Mars. Disconcerting enough that the steering wheel is on the right with the subsequent shifty/ geary stuff on the left...it also took us a couple of minutes to figure out how to start it. It came with what looked like a fob, but no key. After Troy consulted the manual, we found the place to insert the "key" followed by depressing the break and pushing the key in to start the car. Weird! But kinda neat ;) It took us another five minutes to figure out how to program the GPS, which I dubbed "Rosie". So I would have someone to curse out in my frustration if we got lost. As we drove off the rental lot I could see others leaving, driving with much the same overly defensive OMG-this-is-unnatural demeanor. It was a bit nerve wracking at first. Still, as we wended our way into Edinburgh city, it got easier. The roads are the tiniest bit wider than in Ireland. And I had been proactive and gotten the full insurance on the car. No worries.
The first B&B was located out in the neighborhood of Merchiston. I highly recommend the Granville Guest House if you are ever in Edinburgh. The owner, Latif, is a doll and takes extreme pride and care in providing for his guests. We didn't do much the first day because we had all three been awake for over 30 hours. We found a nice little place down the street called the Piece Box to have afternoon tea. It was an early night for us.
The next day we awoke bright and early and after a lovely breakfast of sausage, eggs, ham (lovely porky goodness!) and toast we hopped the bus up to the Royal Mile. Thank goodness we got to Edinburgh Castle quite early. There was already a line 30 people long. This much I have learned from travelling: Get to the biggest attractions first thing when they open, or you will be waiting quite a bit to get in. The castle was amazing. I believe it sits on the highest hill in the city. You can see all the way out into the Firth of Forth from its walls. There are rows of cannon lining the old stone walls, though they are not original. There are lots of places to see inside the castle, including the Crown Jewels. I found the Stone of Scone (or the Stone of Destiny) to be more interesting. Up until 1998, it had sat under the throne at Westminster Abbey in England where the royals sat to be crowned. It was returned to Scotland that year, and it will be brought to Westminster again when the next monarch of England is to be crowned. Think of how many royals have been crowned over that stone in the last couple of hundred years. Cause for reflection, I think. One of the things that really tickled me was the small graveyard below the chapel of Mons Meg for the dogs of the officers. Little headstones with names like "Tinker" and "Scamp". Such easily overlooked things that speak more to me about the people who lived there than do cannon or great halls. After Edinburgh Castle, we meandered down the St. Giles Cathedral. There is a chapel dedicated to the only chivalric order in Scotland in there, the Knights of the Thistle. They also have the largest pipe organ I have ever seen in my life, reaching straight to heaven or so it seemed. I wish I could have heard it play, I'm sure it was something very special and memorable to hear. What dazzled me more was the plethora of fresh daffodils all around the church for Easter services. Spring seemed to have sprung inside the church, and for all of the neo-Gothic loveliness, I was equally taken with the fresh yellow flowers in their simple pots strewn about the church. As if we hadn't seen enough, we went to see the National Museum just a few blocks over. Wow, we were tired by then. Eyes starting to glaze over a bit. There is such a thing as saturation, when your senses have taken in so much in a short time that your brain really can't take much more. Well, we'd almost reached our daily limit I feel. I have to say that the prehistoric, Pictish, and early Roman artifacts are extremely interesting. I had forgotten that the Romans had come into Scotland, and had built settlements on the southern half of the country. Pictish artifacts were found out on many of the islands such as Islay and the Orkneys. I couldn't help myself, had to take pics of the fertility amulets and votives lol There were torques, bracelets, brooches, a hood, dishes, even remnants of shoes. Old arrowheads, a stone arm guard for an archer, a horse's armor. The Bank of Scotland chest with fifteen locks in the lid just boggled my mind. That evening, we visited a few pubs in the Grassmarket area that played live music. Wow, that's one busy pub scene. Crowded, one has to push to the bar. I did find out that due to my dieting, I can really only handle two pints anymore. I got full! Darn those calories.
The next day, we bid adieu to Latif and headed out to Glencoe. We stopped on the way at Stirling, stronghold of Robert the Bruce. Site of the battle at Bannockburn where he defeated the English. Childhood home of the young Mary Queen of Scots. Clouds wash over the green hills. There was a strong breeze carrying the scent of fresh rain. Yeah, I liked it there. Robert Bruce is really seen as the hero of that time, and William Wallace seems to considered more of a secondary figure.
I could give you a play by play of the rest of the trip, but I'd actually prefer that you check out my Facebook photos. They kind of tell the story better than I could. It's got a special place in my heart. I would go back in a heartbeat if given the opportunity.
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